I did a thing and to most people this thing is not that big of a deal. To me it is HUGE!
My thing?? I just set my alarm for 5:15am for tomorrow morning!! And I am excited about it! Why is this such a big deal? Because I have never liked to get up. In fact when my hubby and I were engaged we were at a family reunion and my siblings were ready to go hiking and I was still asleep. They sent my hubby up to wake me up. When my Dad noticed he was gone from the living room he asked where my hubby had gone. When my sister said to wake up Janna. Dad said well that engagement is off.
Through the dark days of anxiety and depression sleep was even more precious to me. I could escape through sleep. In fact when my oldest was in first grade he would have to come and wake me up for school. Yep a 6 year old was waking up his mom for school.
Why does all of this matter? It matters because I want you to know that things change. You will get better. The days aren’t always hard and the world isn’t always scary.
I am excited to wake up in the morning now because I have dreams and goals. I still deal with depression and anxiety; some days are just hard. It does get better. There is a light. Life changes for the better. There are so many people rooting for you and cheering you on. You don’t even know!
You are loved, keep up the fight!
