People are scary! Wait didn’t I just write this post? Oh yea I did.
I wrote that post knowing that there was a women’s group, meeting at my church. (The women’s group is called Relief Society.) I knew that I needed to start going to make some friends. And I had been asked to make cookies. Perfect excuse to go right? It was also a get to know you night because there are lots of new people coming so I wouldn’t be the only “new” person there.
All day yesterday all I could think is I don’t want to go. I made the cookies thinking well I can just drop them off. Or I can just go for half an hour. At least if I go I can say I did it. I JUST WROTE A BLOG POST ABOUT BEING FRIENDLY I HAVE TO GO.
Well, I didn’t go. The world didn’t crash down. We had a great night together as a family. No one called me to ask where I was with the cookies. It was all good. Except I felt a little guilty because I didn’t go. I mean I did just write this great blog post.
This morning I met a fellow “This is my Brave” cast member. To be honest I thought she just wanted to meet to sell me her product. I couldn’t figure out why she wanted to get together. She is gorgeous, accomplished and totally awesome. Why would she want to get together with me??? Yes these are all of the thoughts I have running through my head.
I really wanted to tell her that I wasn’t coming. But I didn’t. And you know what I was totally wrong!! She just wanted to visit. We talked for an hour all about life and goals and how we are doing mentally. It was an amazing hour.
Maybe I can make new friends. I just need to do it on my terms.
